Has your ghost come to haunt me --
All the horrors of days gone by
That I thought I'd forgotten at last?
Have you come now to steal away
What is left of my dreams,
You seep into each second of every day
Or so it seems.
I thought I'd banished you
Into the deepest, darkest grave.
I'd forgotten the wounds
And the scars that you gave.
I even tried to forgive you,
Though you never asked for that,
And deep inside I didn't think you deserved it.
You never showed much remorse.
Oh sure, you were upset when you got caught,
Of course.
And you maybe felt a little bad,
Or even a tab bit "sad" when I left you.
Oh, poor you...
You lost your "free whore" ...
I wasn't there anymore ...
No more puppet
At your disposal
To have and to hold
To do whatever the hell you felt like to
Whenever the hell you wanted to
For as long as you wanted to
Until you got bored.
Oh, dear Lord,
How could you?
As if that wasn't bad enough,
Now you've been dead and gone for years,
But still you creep into my fears,
And the thought of you
Sometimes brings me to tears
And I HATE the fact that I cannot sleep
Because of terrors in the night --
It just isn't right
That I still can't shake the pain of what you did,
How I cried in shame and hid
When I heard you come for me,
And hoped the children wouldn't hear or see,
How I tried my best not to cry,
Not to scream out in pain,
Tried to hide my fear and shame.
It was always the same . . .
It was like you thought it was a game . . .
Always pretending you cared,
And then leaving me lying there,
In the middle of the bed
In a puddle of crimson red,
Used up in a ball, crying,
Feeling like dying,
Huddled and scared.
Why can't I forget?
Why can't I stop this feeling?
It's like I'm your eternal marionette
That you manipulate at will.
How can you control me still?
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!
