I Feel So Lost (sonnet)

I feel so lost in a big, brand new world --
In a game where I don't know all the rules.
All alone, just a frightened little girl,
Asked to build a life without many tools.
I know how to be a mother quite well.
I know that I'm expected to work, too,
But the "extras," nobody wants to tell;
I'm left wond'ring what I'm supposed to do.
If I make a wrong choice, my kids are gone.
If I do too much at once, I collapse.
I'm terrified that I'll do something "wrong."
I don't know who to trust or who to ask.
I can't please ev'ryone at once, it seems,
I am still figuring out what life means.