Sometimes it's scary learning to love
Wond'ring if I'll ever be enough
What if I make the same mistake I made before
Can't fight this pain anymore
Don't know what I'm living for
Taking risks and being vulnerable is tough.
Sometimes it's impossible to hide
The feelings that I feel deep inside
Ending it all sounds so tempting
When the pain is so heart wrenching
But I can't do that to those I'd leave behind.
Can't sleep in the middle of the night
Can't find a way to rest that feels right
Memories of yesterday hold me by the throat
Take enough pills just to keep me afloat
Still left with nightmares filled with fright.
Can I hold on til I find happy ever after?
Can I stop the tears and find the laughter?
Someone loves me for who I am,
But does he know everywhere I've been?
After all, would he think it matters?
Sometimes love is scary,
It's worrisome and hairy.
Will it be the time of my life
Once again as someone's wife,
Or will it be the mistake of my life?
There's no way to know
What might be
Between him and me.
That look between us
When we're feeling in love -
What if that comes to an end,
And I'm left without even a friend?
I try not to think about what might have been . . .
I can't go back again,
I can't pretend
What happened wasn't real.
There's no way of unfeeling
The things that I feel.
There's no way of sleeping tonight.
Something just doesn't feel right.
So I stand in the rain,
Smoke another cigarette
And try to drown the pain
In another glass of liquor.
Just makes me feel sicker
And sadder,
More shameful
Like I'm climbing a ladder
Down to the depths of hell.
Can't think very well.
And the reason why?
Who can tell.
I don't want to fall,
But I don't want to call
Anyone.
Want to run.
Want to give up.
Want to lie down
And never awake,
But that would be
A terrible mistake.
Just when I've found love.
But love is scary.
Love is so scary...
When you've been hurt so badly . . .