Just Hold Me (Poem)

Will there ever come a time

When I live more than half alive?

Will there ever come a moment

That I forget his torment?

Will there ever come a day

That I forget the way

He treated me worse than a cow,

That's how it felt anyhow.

Will there ever come a second

That I feel like more than a slut

More than a whore,

Even though no one calls me that

Anymore.

The words still ring in my ears,

Even though "I love you,"

Is mostly what I hear.

I've heard those words before,

Before being slammed into a door,

Choked til I passed out,

Smashed into a wall

Until I couldn't breathe at all.

So forgive me if "I love you"

Doesn't cut it.

I can't get past the memories

Of what he did to me.

I really want to believe

The things you say and do for me.

You've been nothing but wonderful,

But somehow I feel I don't don't deserve

Your love at all.

I feel so small.

I feel so very small.

Unlike a person at all.

Take me to some other place

Where I cannot see his face,

But only yours.

Help me see that life and love

Are things worth fighting for.

I cannot find my balance on the ground.

This world is too heavy,

But if you hold me, just maybe,

I can learn to stand.