Never Be the Same (poem)

From the moment that we met, I ceased to live.

I lost myself somewhere in who you were.

I gave you all of me that I could give,

But who or what did I become? I'm still not sure.

I did EVERYTHING that you told me to do.

If you told me to go, that's where I went.

My feelings didn't matter, and I knew

That if I even I even slightly disobeyed you,

You’d rain down bloody hell

Until not a single soul could tell what was left of me.

That’s what you had always so proudly said --

That no one would even recognize me once I was dead.

So, I learned that early on -- that there was no escape.

That black was orange, your sky was green,

And “come with me,” just meant more rape.

Your brutal acts convinced me hope was dead.

I gave up even feeling; my soul died.

Each time you’d drag me off to another bed,

I’d find a spot inside my head and hide.

I was little more than a child when you came.

I know that I will NEVER be the same.