Reminded (Acrostic Sonnet)

Some days fly by without a single thought,
Obscured by daily tasks that I must do.

How is it there are days that I cannot
Expect to find a passage safely through?
Reminded by the simplest little things,
Each time I pray that this will be the last.

I brace myself for what each mem'ry brings;

God help me, I can't breathe until it's passed.
Oft times the things that he has said and done

As foreign movies play before my eyes.
Gripped by the fear, I want to turn and run
Away from each unorthodox surprise.
I never wanted to endure it then.
Now I must somehow live through it again.

Can't take that away from me

The way you held me tight
And whispered in my ear
The way it felt so right
No they can't take that away from me

The way you made me feel
When I was in your arms,
The way it felt so REAL,
No they can't take that away from me

I never felt that way before
I thought that it was really love,
But I sure wasn't ready for

The way you called me fat
The way you groped at me
The memory of all that
No they can't take that away from me

The way you yelled and screamed
The way you hid my keys
The way it haunts my dreams
No they can't take that away from me

I may never trust in love.
All those things are in the past,
But I'll always have the memory of

The way you held that knife
And pinned me down till three
The way I'm scarred for life
No they can't take that away from me

The way you stole my soul
And left me dead inside
The way my blood ran cold
No they can't take that away from me

I may someday feel less numb,
And dull this gnawing ache inside,
But I will always shudder from

The way you knocked me flat
And drug me by my hair
The memory of all that
No they can't take that away from me

The way you made me beg,
The way you broke down doors,
The way you spread my legs,
No they can't take that away from me

I will someday learn to try
To face the world without this fear,
But I'm forever haunted by

The way you punched the wall,
The way you fondled me,
The way my skin would crawl,
No they can't take that away from me

The way I was your mat
The way you stomped on me
The memory of all that
No they can't take that away from me

I still see your sneering face,
I still hear your snarling voice,
And nothing can ever replace

The way you crashed my car
The way you scared the kids
The way you went too far
No they can't take that away from me

The way you slurped and spat
Said that was good enough
The memory of all that
No they can't take that away from me

You thought I'd always be
Around for you to use
If only you could see

The way I saw the light
The way I called for help
The ways I've learned to fight
No they can't take that away from me

The way we have a HOME
The smiles the kids have now
The way I've found my own
No they can't take that away from me.
No they can't take that away from me.

I Wish I Knew (Acrostic Sonnet)

Why did my tears escape the concrete dam?
How could I just relax and let them fall?
Am I so out of touch with who I am
That I don't know the things I feel at all?
Do I believe I'll never see the end
Of all this pain that's turned my heart to stone?
If I could have one wish, I'd like a friend,
Lest I forever live my life alone.
Of course, this wasn't how my life was planned.
No matter what I fear, I know I must
Go forth and grasp tomorrow by the hand,
Forget the past, and somehow learn to trust.
Of all the things I wish that I could feel,
Right now I wish I knew that love was real.